OMFG TRIFORCE

Homecoming.

It was quite the mixed bag.

On one hand I got to hang out with some friends and spend some time with Shelby.

Who is amazing, though I do feel kinda selfish around her lately cause I just can't seem to get enough of her. All the time we spend together is over in a blink and I seem to be wanting to spend more time with her than ever because of my last year in high school. I'm always scared of regretting not being with her enough, but that just might be my paranoia.

On the other there was some gay ass drama/reflective sadness going on.

It's making me feel weird as shit.

My emotions:

Happiness: 100%

Anger: 100%

Sadness: 80%


The way these emotions are colliding is confusing the shit outta me.

But the sadness and anger are unfairly outweighing the happiness.

It was my senior homecoming and I had a blast.

But the negative shit was just not needed.

I will remember it for a lonnnng time.

And I don't want to look back and say, "That fucking bitch broke his heart."

I want to look back and say, "I had one of the best times ever that night."

My stupid fucking paranoia took a toll on me too.

I don't know why I worry.

I really wish I didn't but...god damnit I don't know.

Overall, I just want to finish the year in a simple way.

Have fun, don't have high expectations, don't be so selfish, be the best person I can, and don't be so god damn pessimistic all the time.

I gotta live in the moment, not cry about how this moment is going to be the last one of its kind.

Man I really wish I had someone to vent to right now...




She had to ruin it for us...