I think I think too much

I


Am



Confused.






BAHHHHHHHHAHAHHAAHA stfu, I'm not, but really I am.

Some reason I've been getting depressed more often lately.

And for stupid reasons.

I guess its because I depend on stupid things for happiness.

LOL

Z

I depend on false hope for happiness.

False hope isn't very dependable.


I hate image and why it does/doesn't matter.


Lately I've also been very happy periodically also.

But that too, is because of seemingly false hope.

I can't seem to convince myself that good things can happen to me.

But that might change soon.

Who knows.

I just have to hope.

Try and then hope for the best.

Because if the best doesn't come out, then I can settle for a bit less.

Outright rejection is what scares me in life.

Concerning all things.

I like it when people like me.

I can't have anyone not like me.

And by keeping quiet and being reserved no one hates me.

But I just come off as a soulless mindfreak.

Thats why I've decided to take some risks.

Not stupid ones, oh no.

Just to do little things that I normally wouldn't.

Say hi to this person in the halls.

Participate publicly in class.

Give people you normally wouldn't a chance.

All of these changes are from a new principle I've decided to live by.

The harder thing is almost always the right thing to do.

Go against the grain of temptation and live life from there.

I figure if I do this, then good things will eventually come my way, but I really shouldn't complain.





My life is great.

I have awesome friends.

Awesome family.

Good grades.

Many talents.

No reason to complain.

But I don't have everything, as most people appear to.

But I'm usually wrong, they don't have it all.

A lot of them are lost, and its sad.

But I just wish life wasn't scheduled.




Gahd damnit.






Time for sleep/wakeup/gearsofwar/chemistry/sleep/wakeup/school/think/think/think/think/think/think/eventuallydie